An Energy Shift
I thought I had social anxiety growing up and in college. Turns out I was just shy and not willing to expand my comfort zone. This past October/November I woke up 5/7 days with an anxiety attack. Even worse, I wasn’t sure what was going on with me until someone explained to me-GIRL, YOU’RE GEEKING! I had a few negative people or problems in my life at the time. And now about 9 months later, I feel so wonderfully different.
Back in June, my fiancé and I had our engagement shoot done. I was so excited all week!! But the morning of, I woke up and started to feel the pit in my stomach and my chest, feeling like breathing was harder and harder. I was alone in the bathroom and my mind was racing.
What if she (our photographer) doesn’t get here?
What if there’s a bear in the woods?
What if, what if, what if- one after another.
Finally I stood up and thought,
I HAVE BEEN EXCITED FOR THIS ALL WEEK AND I AM GOING TO ENJOY THIS
Shifting my thinking to be more positive, and reminding myself that I want this, I deserve this, it’s going to be so fun, and nothing is going to go wrong-and if it does? Laugh about it later!
Like I said previously, I THOUGHT I had anxiety growing up- I was wrong. Until this past autumn (2018), I never felt so controlled, conquered by my own thoughts.
I can’t say this will work for you or anyone I know, but I do know I can control my mindset and energy. Whenever I begin to feel nervous or feel an anxiety attack creeping up I try to ask myself, ‘why are you feeling this way?’
Most of the time, what I need to do is shift the ‘worst-case’ to ‘best-case’ scenario playing over and over in my mind. Focusing on my breathing, the positive outcome of whatever is going on that day, and the people I get to be around usually works. The point is to let ME be the boss of my mind, body, and actions not letting our mind and fears control us.